I have been trying to do the best I can. It is hard sometimes all I just want to do is lay down and cry. Yesterday morning after breakfast and balancing the checkbook I got an overwhelming sad feeling and just went to the bed to lay down. After a few minutes Hubby came in and laid behind me and just held me and said nothing. Last night he asked me if I wanted some dinner. I said no and he fixed me some anyway and made me eat it.
This morning I ate 2 toast and 2 poached eggs and berries.
Around 1-ish he kept asking me if I was hungry and I kept saying no, I was just laying on the chair in the living room crying. So he went and made me some lunch and made me eat again. Chicken cut up, cucumber cut up, and 1/2 avocado.
He took off many days of work just to stay with me. I don't have any idea what I would be doing right now if I didn't have him.
I asked him to go to the stores with me cause I feel kind of dizzy all the time and don't want to drive. We went to Sam's Club and then Sprouts then home.
I ate 6 buffalo wings and a spinach salad for dinner and some redi whip and 2 small protein bites for desert.
I want to thank all of you for always saying such nice things to me that I need to hear right now. I know some of you are having a hard time on the BFC. LIFE IS HARD!! But eating doesn't have to be. It isn't for me. Those of you that are hiding in the wings and never comment - come out and join us. I promise what ever you are going thru, YOU will feel so much better with support.
We are a BFC Family here and will always be there for one another.
My thought for today:
Whatever mis-communications or problems you might have with your loved ones - FIX IT NOW before its too late. Tell them that you love them.
Thanks for listening and as always Keep on BFC ' n :-)
Wise words my friend. I'm glad hubby is there for you. I hope knowing we are keeping you in our thoughts and prayers helps in some small way. I don't think losing a loved one and the pain that goes with it, ever gets an easier. We just get better at handling it. I had a crying moment tonight thinking about Beth. Sometimes life just sucks and we have to take it for what it is and know the sun will still rise tomorrow and we will go on. XO
ReplyDeleteRosalie- you are such a strong spirit. I know your loved one is looking down from above filled with pride at the strength you posses. It's never to late to tell someone you love them. Even if they are not on physical earth.... They hear and feel your love, pain, happiness, forgiveness. I love you lady. Keep strong
ReplyDeleteWhat a nice man you have. I agree with you life is hard, sometimes harder than others and we can't use that as an excuse to eat bad. Hang in there :)
ReplyDeleteHi Rosalie-Thank you for your blog. you are an inspiration. I would like to ask did you follow the BFC plan right from the start when you began your blog? Did you ever fall off the "bandwagon"? I am really considering this, it seems so easy and doable, my hardest part is the fruits. I love fruits. Thanks in advance for answering! Take care.- Lupita
ReplyDeleteHi Lupita,
DeleteI started the original BFC on Jan 25, 2010. In March I started blogging to stay accountable for myself. I stayed very strict with the plan and never fell.
I thought by not eating the fruit, I would not do this forever. But go back and read my early posts and you will see how over time as I started losing and saw that it REALLY DOES WORK, I didn't care about that any more.
The only fruit I eat are berries. Black berries, raspberries have the lowest sugar. After I lost all the weight then I now eat blueberries and maybe a strawberry once in a while.
Do it - It Works.
Thank You Rosalie! You sold me! lol Have a great and blessed day. :)
DeleteSo many hugs your way Rosalie! xoxo
ReplyDeleteI am so glad you have honey!! Hang tight!
ReplyDeleteI've been MIA for a long time but still follow your blog faithfully. So very sorry for your loss. How you find the strength is beyond me, but even when you're curled in a ball crying, you're far stronger than I think I could ever be. You're in my prayers! You're inspiring me more than you could ever know. Hugs to you!
ReplyDeleteIm so happy to know you hubby is taking such loving care of you. Please know that we all love you and are here for you. Sending you big hugs and healing energy!
ReplyDeleteBeing married to a good man is nice - glad he's looking out for you. Sending my happiest thoughts to you :)
ReplyDeleteJust checking in on you and am glad to hear you have such a wonderful man looking after you. You are blessed! I know these days are extremely difficult ... keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteSoooo glad to hear that you have a good supportive guy there Rosalie.. xoxo
ReplyDeleteYour husband is being wonderful! I'm so glad you have his support right now when you need it the most.
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