I feel like the last 4 months of my life has been a complete waste. Sitting around holding my breath. The not knowing is the worst. Just NOT knowing what is gonna happen to me. I stopped looking for a job because the new house was gonna be much further out and didn't want to drive so far for minimum wage, which seems to be the only thing I am worth.
The stress has been so bad its a wonder that I only gained 3 lbs over all this. And really that's nothing at all.
Now I really have no idea. I don't know what we're gonna do or where we will live. I feel like everything has been sucked out of my chest. I feel empty today and worried I guess. So that's - that.
Yesterday's breakfast;
Lunch time; I rolled up 3 pcs of turkey w/ a cheese in the middle and put it in my purse and went to the movies by myself. I was feeling so bad and tried to make the time go by faster. Hubby is working days remember?
I saw this movie called The Awakening. Scary of course about Ghosts. It was so funny cause here I was the ONLY one in the theater and it was about ghosts. And then about 7 other people came in LOL. I guess I was upset about all the house stuff cause I got a large popcorn and mindlessly ate 3/4 of the bag. Oh well that was my lunch anyway.
I snuck into another movie after called the Campaign. It was funny.
I got home and the dogs had been outside for like 4 hours and were making faces like they had been running a marathon the whole time I was gone. They are so spoiled and used to me being home all the time.
For dinner I just had a spinach salad.
And afterwards for desert I had 2 protein bites and rediwhip. Yup Still addicted to them.
I love that I finally figured out ow easy and cheap it is to make my own nut butters - thanks again DAWN :-)
Right now I am on my way to take Mandy and peaches for a haircut.
Before photos;
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| Peaches: They sleep all night and then go right back to sleep again. |
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| Mandy: she was hiding behind the couch. |
I'm gonna just put R.S in the sink for a bath - she doesn't know it yet, but I'm betting she won't like it.
This is PurpleRosy signing off...
No thought for the day - I am thought-LESS.
Keep on BFC ' n :-)
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aw...I know just how you feel honey, you hang in there and know that once everything is resolved you will look back and say, 'man that was a bad time', but you will revel in the fact that you made it through! I am pulling for ya! Maybe you could take a class or something like that, just to give you something to do to make you feel better about yourself? I was very down about life and starting my crafting is what helped turn me around. It's a thought. Hang in there!
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Hang in there, Girl. Things will come together for you.
ReplyDeleteAw Rosalie, Hang in there! Things will get better!
ReplyDeletePretty soon this will all seem like a bad nightmare in the past! I am amazed you don't eat things you shouldn't in all this stress cause I sure do! I love reading your blog!
ReplyDeletewell, I'm pretty sure your'e not THOUGHTLESS, lol, but I know exactly what you mean. ;) I love that the nut butters are so easy. Take care, and talk to ya soon, I gotta get off to bed. O
ReplyDeleteHow frustrating!!! You know you are worth more than minimum wage. Big Hugs :)
ReplyDeleteStress sucks - I hope for your sake this is over soon. Hang in there. You are NOT what you do (or get paid) - that is NOT your value :)
ReplyDeleteOh Rosalie, I am sorry that things are so up in the air. I hope it all works out. You give so many of us hope in how you get through your stress. You always have a positive message, so if once in awhile you need to say how you really feel, I think that makes you real. What's ever on your heart is what I want to read:)
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