I feel bad not blogging all the time like I used to, but I am doing it when I can. You know, my Hubby has said to me many times that I talk too much. Today I realized that he is right... I say the wrong things to the wrong people.
That's me - blah-blah-blah... I think I am used to being alone all the time and say what ever I want - however I feel - when ever I want, with no one to ever talk to, except the dogs and believe me they are excellent listeners. I have NO friends to talk to or do anything with. Are we supposed to have any friends at the age of 55?
I am doing better at work - I think anyway and have decided to just let the Spanish thing go. I am not gonna be upset or hold it against them. Why should I be angry over that? I was wasting energy being offended and hurt.
Everyone is very nice over there and I guess I just can't tell anymore if when someone is smiling to your face - that they like you or NOT?? Do they just wait for me to walk away and then talk about me?? I stayed after work today to ask my boss how he thought I was doing after 3 months of doing this... Most of it was fine and he thinks I will be very good at this, but he did mention for me not to ask the other people anything because whatever I say - they say to others.
I told him I didn't know I couldn't ask the other people how to do anything. He said our group in our office is separate. Well now I know... I don't understand why no one wants to me my friend. What do I do wrong? What is wrong with me?? Maybe I talk about eating healthy too much and they don't? Maybe I complain too much - I am going thru menopause after all and get kind of bitchy - A LOT!!
My life now is - get up and get ready to go, make breakfast and my lunch for later...off to work...come home at night and take the dogs for a walk 9 tonight it was 1.9 miles)... come back home and find something to eat... watch TV for a little bit... then the (NO SLEEP) well I try to sleep anyway... the weekends I run errands and balance the checkbook and pay bills and do paperwork...CLEAN the house...pick up poop...spray for weeds...laundry...try to get walks in the daytime to enjoy the sun...
Tomorrow I made an appointment to have my hair and nails done at a new salon near me. It is kind of expensive. I used to do my own nails all the time because I got a bad fungus infection once - but don't have anytime now that I work. I have not had my hair done in - well FOREVER! I dye and cut it myself - all the time after many years ago I paid someone to cut my hair and came home and it was crooked... I said NO More - well until tomorrow I guess.
OK - well that's my bitch for now...Have a nice weekend.
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We moved to Florida and I was unhappy the first year. I realized, after a while, I was so worried about what other people would think of me that I wasn't being myself. Since then I have tried to be my usual friendly self, and things have gone much better. It may be that work is a different situation. But be true to yourself-you are a wonderful person, and that wonderfulness will shine through. You will feel much better when you re not questioning everything you say or do.
ReplyDeleteGood job on letting go that hey are speaking spanish, they probably are just more comfortable that way. The happy person is the one that lets go of the things they can not change.... a wise woman told me that!
ReplyDeleteWe have the potential to have our little blogging community back again!!! Dawn, Sherri, Patti, Dana and whoever wants to join! We are all doing different things, but we have the common goal to DO IT!!! Have a great weekend! Did you see Non Stop or Son Of God yet?
You are not alone in how you feel. My walking partner dumped me this week and I took it REALLY hard and was crying to my husband. Then I got mad and told him all the bad and mean stuff about her because she made me feel bad and hurt. Sometimes people just suck!!!!! Hahahahaha! That's my theory and I'm sticking to it. I know I can be negative, but I try really hard not to be. I'm also very very sensitive, just like you are. My feelings get hurt when someone doesn't like me or if they criticize.....I mean why wouldn't they like me......I'm AWESOME!!!! Hahahahaha! Sorry, I'm just cracking myself up today. I guess I'm just going to try to be positive and happy and not dwell on the bad and negative. I read somewhere this week that we think others are talking and judging us more than they actually are because they are too busy worrying that others are talking bad and judging them.....Does that make sense? Anywhoo....I'm glad this blogging community is around because I consider all of you my friends. It doesn't matter if we are doing the same diet. We all have different bodies and needs so even if we do different diets, we all have the same goal of health in mind! Now go enjoy this beautiful warm day!
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We can't change others. We can only work on ourselves. Don't ever give anyone power over you. Love yourself because YOU ARE AWESOME!
ReplyDeleteWe all love you here, Rosalie. This is a place where we will love you and listen to you. We will lift you up when you are sad and sing praises with you when you are happy.
Be proud of yourself because God doesn't make junk and you are amazing!
Blessings, Love and Hugs for you, Rosalie! :)
Linda in Western NC :)