Well I am still trying to adjust to working and at doing something I know absolutely nothing about to boot. It is frustrating some days and a couple days ago I told hubby that I don't think I should be doing this. Doing loan processing is stuff that goes way over my head at times. 3 weeks is not enough time to know it, but in my head - at a regular job, I should know it all - but not in real life and not here.
He told me to start coming in at 10 instead of 9 so they can take care of the rush-rush stuff without me asking questions, I guess. That's fine with me, 6.5 hours is better than no.5 hours. LOL
Mandy is the same as last week. She does drink water and goes in and out the doggie door by herself, but won't eat that much. I try to feed her some turkey lunchmeat or anything. She won't eat out of the bowl or even off a spoon anymore.
A few days ago Hubby tried something to get her to eat some wet canned food, he put it in his hand and - LOW and Behold she ate a few bites. So that is what I have been trying twice a day. Just now I found some brown rice I had cooked and put in a baggie in the freezer and mixed with some wet food and gave her about 4 bite from my hand. That's all and she gets up and walks away.
I just don't know how long she will last with only eating a few bites of food a day. She is very weak. I try to still walk her with Peaches and me about a block or so then back. She goes VERY slow and you can hear her nails scratch the ground as we walk with her head down. But she really wants to go. She tries to smile and wag a bit.
Hubby has been picking her up to put her on the bed in the morning for a little bit. She can't jump up any more but can get down by herself.
I am still eating the way I always do even though I don't have as much time to make my treats. I am trying to do it on the weekends now. Yesterday I went out back and picked up poopie and sprayed for weeds.
Life goes on - working or not - right?
Yesterday I posted a comment on Facebook:
I hate life right now. I sure hope that 2014 will be a better year than this past has been.
I can't believe the response I got. There are so many of you that are going through a bunch of crap and feel just like me.
There are times when ---- and tell me if this is you too --- when I just cry by myself, feel so alone and useless, no friends to call or hang out with, unloved, just wondering why ME.... Why did my life have to be so dang hard ever since I was born!! I seriously could write a book and make a movie from my experiences.
I don't tell you this SHIT to ever get any pity or want you to feel sorry for me, just so you know that if you feel bad about something too - YOU ARE NOT ALONE...
It's perfectly OK to cry LOUD if you want, and feel like shit if you want - but we MUST get back up - Cause LIFE GOES ON!! No matter what.
No matter what - and this is VERY IMPORTANT - NEVER let your feelings control what you eat!!
We EAT to LIVE - NOT - live to EAT...
This is PurpleRosy signing off. Have a GREAT NEW YEAR!! 2014 Will be better - I just know it!!
Keep on BFC ' n :-)