Boy I wish I could have some more uplifting posts for you but these days are just going one at a time. Yesterday was not a good day. I went to bed the night before with bad headaches and woke up with them. Well I didn't sleep that well as usual - so I guess I was already up.
I had breakfast;
Oatmeal - I usually don't have this because I tend to get hungry only a couple of hours later. I guess I just like the protein of a egg and turkey bacon breakfast better.
1/4 cup of rolled oats, a handful of blueberries and crushed walnuts, cinnamon and stevia.
I felt better a few days ago but yesterday was bad and I was just laying around. Hubby kept trying to get me to get up and go out to lunch and run some errands with him, I just couldn't. Finally around 2pm I gave in and we went to Islands. I had 1/2 a chicken cesar salad and a few fries dipped in ranch.
He was right I felt better. Then we stopped at Stein Mart and got Lisa a present - today was her birthday.
Oh - yeah, while I was out I got a LONG text message from Judy saying that they didn't ruin my life, she doesn't feel sorry for me because I didn't have a relationship with my son and I need to take responsibly for my actions and that I play the victim. She is just plan Evil! Does anyone think it was necessary for her to send me that and go out of her way to make me feel even worse than I already do??
Later around 6pm we met Lisa, Maria, Ana and Cesar (Maria's niece and husband) at a restaurant in Irvine called Taco Rosa. Nice Place.
Ana made reservations out on the patio and Hubby and I got there first and I ordered some MUCH NEEDED wine and hubby a margarita. When I got back from the bathroom he said he ordered 2 each cause happy hour was ending. I needed it anyway.
see I had 2 wines and he had 2 margaritas. |
I look so incredibly tired all the time. |
I ordered Salmon and it came on top of some black beans and veggies - like mushrooms, spinach, onions, tomatoes. I ate half and here is the funny part...
I thought I was eating a small corn tortilla, it turns out it was a flour one and I ate 1 and a half. Everyone else knew but me. They all said they tried to tell me but I was not paying attention I guess.
I felt like I broke one of the ten Commandments or something. Oh Well - Lisa said I wasn't gonna die - so I guess she was right, cause I am still here this morning.
After we went to Ana and Cesar's house near-by. She had a cake for Lisa and made Hubby some coffee and me and Maria some decaf tea.
Lisa served the cake and put a tiny little sliver on a plate for me and Ana said it was too little and I said - Lisa knows what I will eat or not. It was about 3 bites worth and Lisa knew that was all I would eat. It was chocolate w/a whip cream frosting and strawberries in the middle. A good 3 bites I must say.
When Hubby and I got home, we both felt that we had such a great time. I love being with the people that really love and care about me. Ana always treats me like I am a real cousin even though I am not. Love her.
So what started out to be a terrible day wound up very nice thanks to my Hubby for caring so much and my loving FAMILY!!
I did wake up this morning with my weight back at 148lbs. Probably from the wine, tortillas and everything else I ate yesterday.
For any new people; I never ate this kind of stuff while losing my weight. I was very strict and followed the BFC rules to the letter.
Thanks for listening and lots of love to you all...
This is PurpleRosy signing off...
My thought for the day:
Keep on BFC ' n :-)
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Good days and bad days... You are doing great. There is no manual for this! You take each day as it comes and function the best you can. My heart hurts for you knowing you are hurting, but it sounds like your husband has been an incredible source of strength for you... that is a good thing :) Just know that there are so many of us out here rooting you on!
ReplyDeleteI may have missed this along the way, but can you just cut your ex and Judy out of your lives completely now? Block their calls/texts and just don't communicate with them in any way? It sounds like they are "toxic people" for you.
ReplyDeleteWell She called me from a restricted number anyway so I am not sure that will do any good to block and I want to know who is calling me - but I don't have to answer it.
DeleteHow wonderful to be with your family and share a happy celebration for Lisas birthday. I've been to Taco Rosa and it is a nice place. Thanks for sharing the great pictures and I think you look really good! As for Judy, I agree with Becky - you don't need that negativity- you deserve positive loving people in your life.
ReplyDeleteRosalie,
ReplyDeleteYou are an inspiration! I am glad you are posting again. Sounds like a nice birthday celebration. I had a bad weekend with food I posted about it on my blog page (djones0906). It was my first really big slip after 3 months of bfc and the scale shows it. Today is a new day and I am starting again so wish me luck!
Debbie