Today is a very special - sorrowful day. It has been 2 years since my son Aaron has passed. He died in a motorcycle accident at the age of 27. Much too young and a whole life ahead of him. When he died we were not on the best of terms and that haunts me every day.
He was one pretty guy that's for sure. A lot of people in my life have left me too fast and suddenly. 2 of my brothers, my mom and my dad and many others. but this time it was my child and it was different.
I have learned a lot since that day. What ever disagreements you might have with your loved ones - find a way to work it out and mend what ever is wrong. Don't wait. There might not be a next time.
Yesterday Hubby and I got into an argument in the morning before I went to work and I did not speak to him on the phone during the day like I usually do. After work I came home and he said something and set me off again. I got ready to take my usual 2-2.5 mile walk with the dogs and I said to him..." Do you know what tomorrow is?" He said NO - of course. I said "Think about it" and left out the door for my walk.
When I came back he said he remembered and said he was sorry.
Today at work it was sad. Well its sad for me every day - but today it just kind of hit me harder.
Before I knew it he came into work with some flowers playing that Pharell song "Happy" out loud on his cell phone. He tried not to cry and tried to make me feel better.
After work he took me out to dinner at Flemmings Steak House. We have never been there and it was super expensive - but boy it was good.
I had 2 glasses of Merlot, we split a salad, he had a bone-in rib eye that was out of this world - (I had a few bites) and I had halibut (also out of this world) only had half and a few asparagus. For desert we both had some bites of carrot cake.
He went out of his way to make me feel better today and we talked about Aaron and had a great dinner.
I am sorry I said I wasn't gonna blog anymore. I know you all need my experience and imput. I have been eating this way for way over 4 & 1/2 years now and not only lost over 93 lbs, but have kept it off. I will do my best to keep checking in and help who ever needs me.
Tomorrow is a NEW DAY. So whatever happened or whatever you ate bad today - just start over and keep going tomorrow.
This is PurpleRosy signing off...
Keep on BFC ' n :-)
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Sending you a big hug on this day of remembrance. Time heals, so they say...
ReplyDeleteWendy
Ohhhhh...Bless His Great!!! Am Glad You Had A Good Meal! And You Are Right...Mend Fences Quickly!!
ReplyDeleteThinking of you...I'm glad you had Marion there to make you feel better, he sounds like a great man.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you on this difficult day...your strength and your good heart are a gift...I am glad you have someone to show you kindness to help you through the day.
ReplyDeleteprayers to you.....and yea for the blog!
ReplyDeleteYou're a strong woman who has endured much. You have much to teach. I enjoy your blog so thank you for continuing. My heart and a big hug go out to you today. Lynn
ReplyDeleteThere is nothing I can say to make you feel better. It will never feel better, but time will dull the pain a little. Losing Beth was and still is such a devastating event to happen to our family. I can only imagine how much it hurts to lose a child. You are such a strong woman and you can and will keep going forward. I'm glad you are still blogging. I think of you constantly and it reminds me that I too can reach my goal! XO!
ReplyDeleteYour so right, life is to short to forgive is easier than to fighting. I have 4 beautiful children I love to the end of time. My 19 year old son that gives me most of my gray hair and drives me up the wall informed me he just joined the Marines. He did a year of collage and said school is not for him.
ReplyDeleteSo he has been home with us since May and the house is always upside down, and he wants to do things his way while under our roof. Sorry but drinking and coming in late and doing god knows what is not ok. I'm tired of cleaning up the vomit.
I try the hardest to keep the calm in the house because I know he will be off to boot camp soon. The way the world is going now and because he signed up to be on the front line to fight whatever war comes our way. I don't want to fight with him and have him storm out of the house mad at me, for this might be all the time I have left with him.
First of all...my heart goes out to you at the death of your (very handsome:-) son. I just can NOT get my head around what a parent must go through.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you're going to keep posting, even if it happens to be infrequently. I'm starting over AGAIN with Jorge's program. This time, hubs is doing it with me...so it 'should' be easier to stay on track. Your posts, pictures, timeline...they all give me so much inspiration and I thank you for that. However, I do understand if 'you've had it' with the blogging!
I'm kind of in the same boat as you are in the friends department. I moved to a different location 11 years ago, leaving my friends behind (most were more 'acquaintances' than friends). I worked 6 years before getting fired (so my boss' son could have my job!, then ever found another job so consider myself retired). You realize how 'work friends' are really not friends at all! Out of all the women I worked with and 'thought' I was friends with...only 1 is really a friend and 2 others I see very infrequently for a quick lunch. I'm about your age...and it's truly hard to make friends!! I have more 'friends' through an online social knitting group than I do actual people I see in person. Pathetic...
Anyway, THANKS again for all your blogging, posting, inspiration, tricks, etc. I plan to re-read your posts starting Monday when I being (for the LAST time) Day 1 of my 'forever' way of eating.